So D and I are currently in WV for the weekend, celebrating Christmas with my dad, step-mom and younger brother. It's usually an enjoyable weekend, but can be overwhelming. You never know if there will be just 10 people or almost 25 crowding into this house.

In years past when I was unhappy in my life and with myself, this weekend would be particularly unenjoyable. With lots of people in this modest size ranch, there was no personal space. No place to be by yourself. Obviously, that wasn't the intent of the weekend - we were getting together with family to visit, after all. But when you're depressed and unhappy, it's easy to act that way. And I was probably pretty good at showing it.

In 2001, I got my act together and really made myself and my life better. I remember being here the weekend before Christmas and actually enjoying myself. I wasn't surly or closed off so I had a good time. It really is amazing - change your mind and you can change your life.

Back to today - my used-to-be best friend, her two kids, her mom and grandmother came over for our holiday meal (it was too late for lunch, too early for dinner - you know how those holiday meals go). It was nice to see them all, but it was a quick visit. Oh, well. We never talk any more and just occasionally email anyway. She's made her world very small and there's no room in it for me, or really any of her friends. Really, I've come to terms with that but it still gets to me sometimes.

D and I will go to church with my family tomorrow, have lunch then probably head home. It's supposed to snow in Columbus tomorrow, so I'd definitely like to get back before dark.

Geez, that's really it. Things are just that uninteresting. That's a common theme lately. I need to get a life.

Ooh, ooh - but there's always Vegas to look forward to! 15 days, baby!