Busy. That's been my life for the last week. Had a lot of client meetings and dinners then the boyfriend was here over the weekend. Now I'm crawling out of my inbox and crossing a few things off my to do list.

So, what to write about? Nothing particularly exciting is going on, unless you want to read more about my Clean Sweep efforts at home (and I'm sure you don't; but I must say I still love it; next project - the master closet; whee!). The most notable things going on right now are the things looming in my future - getting engaged, selling my house, transfering with my job to another city, fixing up the boyfriend's house to make it acceptable to me, planning a wedding. You know, ordinary stuff like that.

My sister-in-law asked me via email a few weeks ago if I'm getting anxious or am madly wondering when the boyfriend will pop the question since I know it's coming. I answered honestly that no, I haven't been anxious to have it happen. I've been pretty busy so I haven't dwelled on it. But most importantly, once that event takes place, all the other balls start rolling and the game is ON. I'm rather enjoying this calm-before-the-storm period where I can pretend to be oblivious to all the things I have to get done in 2004 and not be frazzled every waking minute.

So the wedding thing. I've been meaning to share my thoughts on that. The problem is, I don't really *have* any thoughts on it. I don't have a strong sense of what I want to do and neither does the boyfriend. I just know it's a lot of work and a lot of money and I know I'll be feeling too overwhelmed to be spending much of either on it. The ideas that currently seem the most appealing are getting married somewhere else (for example, a winery in Napa or small church in Italy) and inviting just close family to attend if they choose. The problem there is that my immediate family could and probably would attend. Something like that is out of the price range for his family. We could pay for his mom and dad, but not his aunt and uncles, and his grandmother isn't really in good enough health to want to make a trip like that. And is it really fair to ask our family members to spend what could be a $1,000 on airfare and accomodations just to attend our wedding? That just seems selfish.

So then I think about doing that remote wedding with just the two of us. But how would I feel not being walked down the aisle by my father? Or not having anyone else there to share in the moment? Honestly, I don't know. I'm flummoxed by the whole thing. So I've just been in denial about it all, pretending it's not looming right around the corner.

The thing is, I think the proposal might happen this weekend. I don't know for sure, but the boyfriend has said things to make me think it won't happen this weekend, which just makes me think it will.

Game on.